Film log #7

I got a new camera. I was using a 35mm half frame Kodak before—it doubled my rolls. Now, I'm using an old 35mm full frame Minolta.

A lot of time is slow, and calm. Sitting around, tending to people and plants, listening to the sounds of the city. Recently, I spent a lot of time waiting around for things to happen. My world slowed down very suddenly and then raced forward again, faster than before. It caused a whiplash.

Even though there's so many people in the city, there are many moments where it's just me on a street or Muni car. Everyone's going through their own journey and life, so it's easy to find places that no one else is. I find myself completely alone in the city a lot.

Although my world seems to keep accelerating, the city can feel so still. People sit around, explore a topic and a moment in time. The buildings and streets know nothing of the work we do, even though they change with the people that come to do the work.

Then, the city gets together and celebrates life, love and community. People here are proud of their home & culture, and take time to show it. The people that lived in this city before the arms race of technology find ways to reassert their connection and love for this place. They know a time and place that I can only try to imagine.

I had a bit of time fully to myself before I entered a new world that I knew would be fast. And that I would to catch up for. I went around the Bay, visiting friends as they celebrated their lives and art.

Then I left the city. I found a hotel at a beach down south and disconnected from the world for a moment. I wrote some music that will be ready to share soon, and I'm proud of those works. My mind kept drifting to the situations that I didn't fully understand how to navigate, but I would pull myself back into experiencing what was in front of me.

When I returned, the world was spinning as when I left it. I prepared myself to get up to speed, and here we are again.